I dunno whats goin on with me this morning but I found
myself woke up with this trouble breathing(caused allergic) and anxious. I
opened the windows and and suck the fresh air. Cold and Misty.
Trying to relax, I listened to my ‘before-go-to-sleep’
playlist, but the songs made it worst. I dunno whats goin on but I thought I
know something is about to happen. And, that’s true.
It’s like I’m going backwards, like Tame Impala said. It’s
like I will lost something. Do I feel so lonely lately? Very. I
feel like people is just hear me, but not listening. When I heard some news
about something this morning, it shut me down. It took me a while. Thinking. How
could everything about it still make me hurt? Make me cry?!
And, am I ready for this? Am I ready to lose it? Really, really
lose it? Can I just waiting for the right time and make it sure, for the last
time? Can he? Can you?
Can we stop this?
How could I stop if I still have this feeling.